3 CDs for one gal

As for now, 3 of these would make me happy....nice music with nice lyrics and soothing effect....

Some jazz....

Meaningful lyrics

and Mraz....

Eventful but faithful.....

Its is a slow post but its a sure post of my reflection for the past year..As i read back my previous post on my reflection for the year 2010, indeed 2011 was a year of the words of that song...lots of uncertainty but God was faithful...

Well for the past year i shall name " Struggles with a but"

IT was a year where i had to struggle and wrestle with God with the different experience He put me through...

1. Relationship

Relationships really helped me to be humble. God provided me with new friendships which He knew i needed in the past year and in Uni. He provided me with people whom i can journey along with and journey with me. For that i am truly thankful to Him.

A broken relationship always affects me in the past and in the present. But God knew that i needed to go through this...the relationship has affected my faith in God and my trust in HIm....but this has also caused me to

Wrestle with God  (not literally physically wrestling)

It has caused me to be really honest with God...caused me to really practice what i always heard from speakers about wrestling with God by asking Him and talking to Him about the most honest things in my life...being real with Him....I guess really telling Him that I can't really trust God because of what happened, resulted in my honest feelings about Him and the whole situation....but as a result God

Proves that 

I can slowly trust Him again...that He is a God who proves to me over and over again that I am wrong..it was this that constantly reminded me that God is still faithful to me despite the struggles i had to go through...despite the doubts i had...He also proves that He is a God who prevails and protects when i am tempted to forsake and give up on Him.... 

A closure that was needed as i was ending the year...And a new beginning to a new experience..

2. Heart and attitude

Because of the above, i had to struggle with my heart and attitude..I had to struggle with God about my attitude and service towards Him and towards the person....struggled so much but God was faithful in speaking and directing me to what is right and what i ought to do according to God's standard....God was telling me that what happened above was for His glory...He's asking me of my availability and my heart of servant hood....the other was Him telling me to love as He first loved....God pulled me thru this..

3. Understanding people close to me better

IT is  a year where i learn to understand my own mother better. Learning her personality and understanding her love language. When i discover more about my mother, I needed to learn to change.I am still slowly learning. It is a difficult road, but it is one way of loving. But I am thankful that i still have time to do that. 

4. Reconciliation and love

This year, a constant reminder to me to reconcile and to love. Through my QT and the weekly sermons. Many reminders of reconciliation and loving. I believe that it was at this appropriate time that I needed to hear this message over and over again..

But overall, i believe that this was the year that my level of relationship with God grown deeper. To another level which was much needed by me. I believe God knew what i needed despite knowing what i wanted and it was having me to have a deeper relationship with Him. I will not forget something a friend said to me "Sometimes what we want may not be something that we need to help us to grow."

" The Lord sits enthroned over the flood; the Lord is enthroned as King forever. The Lord gives strength to His people; the Lord bless his people with peace." (Psalm 29:10-11)

A downcast with hope

Wow! what a week....

After a week of different emotions and occasions (Joy, mourning, celebration, discouragement and the list goes on..) I thought this Psalm was so appropriate as i end the week and begin a new week

Psalm 42

    For the director of music. A maskil[c] of the Sons of Korah.

 1 As the deer pants for streams of water, 

   so my soul pants for you, my God. 

2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. 

   When can I go and meet with God? 

3 My tears have been my food 

   day and night, 

while people say to me all day long, 

   “Where is your God?” 

4 These things I remember 

   as I pour out my soul: 

how I used to go to the house of God 

   under the protection of the Mighty One[d] 

with shouts of joy and praise 

   among the festive throng.

 5 Why, my soul, are you downcast? 

   Why so disturbed within me? 

Put your hope in God, 

   for I will yet praise him, 

   my Savior and my God.

 6 My soul is downcast within me; 

   therefore I will remember you 

from the land of the Jordan, 

   the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar. 

7 Deep calls to deep 

   in the roar of your waterfalls; 

all your waves and breakers 

   have swept over me.

 8 By day the LORD directs his love, 

   at night his song is with me— 

   a prayer to the God of my life.

 9 I say to God my Rock, 

   “Why have you forgotten me? 

Why must I go about mourning, 

   oppressed by the enemy?” 

10 My bones suffer mortal agony 

   as my foes taunt me, 

saying to me all day long, 

   “Where is your God?”

 11 Why, my soul, are you downcast? 

   Why so disturbed within me? 

Put your hope in God, 

   for I will yet praise him, 

   my Savior and my God.

Isn't it great to end a week and start a new week with a psalm like this. Some of us may be going through a tough week or a discouraging week, time, season, moment but i hope Psalm 42 will encourage you to look to God for a hope that mankind and the world cannot give.....It is a psalm where God's love is so apparent here...It is a psalm of challenge to put our faith and trust in God's promises....to really walk faithfully with Him and remain faithful through the challenging times....It is putting God's truth over the circumstances we are going through...That God still cares for our downcast and weary souls....When all is not right, God is our hope...so put your hope in God as He is our Saviour and God.

Time of the year and THE LIST

HAHAHa...well its the time of the year and my so tak malu attitude is going to shine..neway for those of you who are thinking of getting me a nice gift, here are some suggestion..hahaha....

1. Any smart phone (eg Iphone or HTC or Samsung)...well this is more like a want than a need..but if u r feeling like spending some money and don't know where to spend it, u know what to do..hehe

2. Well there's a sale in Forever 21( when i pass by the last time and visited)..there are some really cool accessories there for rm10-RM25...so if don't wanna spend too much on a gift for me, there would be a good place

3. Bro's or Tupperware brand bottle....i actually need a nice bottle to drink water...been buying lots of mineral water and its not good

4. Dinner bag....well my formal occasion dinner bag is not in good condition...and since this coming holidays there will be lots of occasion for me to need a dinner bag, i don't mind a nice new and simple one...no need any bling bling on it...haha

5. Well honestly, i don't mind a book by Amy Tan except for The Joy Luck Club. I enjoy her book.

6.BEsides the list above, i don't mind anything lah..don't really need a lot of things..am quite satisfied with what i have now...

i know i so tak malu...hehehe

Up and down...but God has been good

Well life has been hard recently....the past 1 month was THE toughest part of my life so far but God has been good..It was the lowest point of my life where lots of doubts and questioning was in my mind but God has been there to answer it.....God indeed has been faithful during those times when i was about to fall off the cliff....He picked me up during those times and did not allow me to fall so badly...God really made me laugh more at the wonders of Him as my questions and prayers were answered so immediately when i was about to stray away....He literally made me "terasa pedas" at my own questions and doubts..Indeed, i have to be honest that it has been hard in really trusting in God's faithfulness during those times as i felt that i was betrayed and disappointed with Him...but God did not turn His face away from me instead He helped me to see the truth about Him...He made me realize that what i thought about Him was wrong and it was wrong of me to think that way..... This is a way i believe God is disciplining me...but above all those struggles i faced, i really really am thankful to Him for bringing me back on track. THANK YOU GOD!!!! I guess in each of our walk with Him, we struggle through the many issues in life which makes us doubt in His goodness and mercy. However, it is times like this where we would strengthen our faith in Him especially when we reflect back on His faithfulness in our lives. Times like this would make us fall but come back even stronger than before. Well i can say that for myself. Indeed, i'm ready to face this next part of my life with the confidence i have in God that He will bring me through the seasons and also that He is always ahead of me one step in advance. I am still fearful of what is to happen, but i must always remember to rely on Him who gives me the strength. May the next 1 year( from now till next July 2012) be a journey where i would walk my talk about trusting in His faithfulness (in the post on the 6th of January 2011). 

Toodles

the person who is coming back stronger