2009......it started of with mixed feelings....sad and excited at the same time....quite sad to leave my old job and go into something new but at the same time waiting to see what the Lord plan out for me at this new school.....Being someone who don't like unfamiliar situations and changes, i find it difficult to adapt....and i take a long time to adapt....

Well first week of school was very stressful for me.....I work from 8:30am- 5:30pm (but i leave home before the sun rises and comes home after the sun sets)...Something that i am not use to since i used to work till 1pm....the workload was really a lot especially the preparation....First week with the children was even more stressful as i have a bunch of new children and almost the whole class of crying children......i had never experience/ handle a class of 4 years old ( as in head teacher) and i never experience so many crying children at the same time.... and the pressure from the parents looks on how i am doing things....it was very stressful....i panic on the first day the children came and totally forgot about what were the lessons i have to do for that day.....and thank God my principal and another colleague was there to help...it was quite embarrassing that i really look like i couldn't handle my class well.... I had to send a SOS SMS to my previous Kindi Principal for help....it was really desperate...well but i took it as a learning step..... the children cried till the fourth day....and by Friday, all the children settled in...but i was still in a mess....still confuse.....still stress.....I shed some tears but not too much......

I never thought i will think about saying this in my career path but i did....i never thought that i would say thank God its Friday and Boohoo to Monday...but i did....During the week i question my ability even though i went for training and had 5 years of experience.....i thought that i was not capable of handling a class of 4 year olds....i thought the students did not like their teacher(me).....i thought i said something wrong that affected the child a lot......it was really a frustrating and discouraging first week....but the people and support around me helped me go through.... When it was Friday i was really very tired and i think i was abt to burst into more tears on that day......but i manage to hold it....I guess now i understand what Marcus meant by I'm working in a company and it will be different....It is indeed very different from the previous workplace....

2nd week started off with less crying and at the same time trying to adapt and learn the routines....well it started very rough in the begining of the week...throughout the week i think the word that was repeated too many times by one particular student was "Mama".......it was quite annoying at times.....and the sentence to counter that word is always "Mama will be coming to fetch you at 5:15, don't worry".....it is kinda annoying when i hear myself always repeating the same thing....but 2nd week was much better....The classroom management part was getting better and better as i watch and apply from other teachers i observe....Today was the best day......the children were so much more stable and the children was also more willing to participate in the activities...and for our assembly today, we(my class children) won the prize(which happens to be a monkey call Mr Pickles...so cute....) for being so good and participating in the activities...i'm so proud of my students...they definately felt very happy and proud of themselves....everyone went back with a happy face...so did I....

Overall, it has been a learning process for me...i feel that everyday i'm learning something new(either about the school, the system, the children, the parents, my fellow teachers, classroom and etc) even though it is quite stressful....but i feel its all worth it....

Well i hope for the coming weeks, things will get better as i get used to the system....

This coming Monday will be a totally new experience for me as 1 more student will be coming in and 2 other children are leaving my class...that is really sad...just when i'm getting used to them, they are leaving...haih...but i am praying and hoping that it will all be alright....

I can testify that God has been with me through this...i don't think i'll have the strength to move on if i did it with my own abilities(which is so limited).....

Well thats all about the updates from me....i've actually got one more thing to show..but maybe another time...

toodles..